If I ever leave this world alive
The days of thy life are running from thee:
why dost thou vainly waste thy zeal on the things of the earth
and puttest behind thee all the things of heaven?
Thou hast spent thy life sunk in the worries and cares of the world,
working thyself into a decline through the pains and the sorrows.
Thou art a stranger housed in a body of the earth defiled:
How long therefore hast thou been heedless of what thou ignorantly doest?
Thou toilest all thy time to nourish thy body:
yet hast thou not worried, poor thing, in what way thou canst be saved.
Thou weepest and sheddest tears for a son or a friend dying:
yet thy own departing, the thought of it enters not into they heart.
Look therefore at that which is hidden from thee and see from today henceforth:
Lo, the way to travel is before thee; forget not thy departing.
Choose not the life of this body before eternal life:
put the fear of God in they heart and thou shalt live without toil.
Psalm CCLXV, MPB, p. 82 (From Davidson, 1995)
“I’m not talking my own book. It’s just that I went to the last chapter of the book, and it’s not a happy ending. Leave.” – Thomas Kaplan, resource speculator and conservationist
I created this site after I experienced an awakening on June 12, 2018. Having no one to guide me at that point, I decided to put the best post-satori instruction I could find in one place for easy reference. I also wanted people to be able to read works in their original context, and so references are given for all passages quoted.
Another thing I wanted to do with the site was to share the method I used to gain my awakening. The online course I took cost $2,500, but most of the exercises from the course can be found in Eleven practices to attain the first awakening.
In order to find out what you really are, the one infinite Self, you have to let go of the ego-self. Not everyone will have the attitude of, “Die, bitch!”, but it helps. Enlightenment is to go beyond death before the body dies; in order to accomplish this you must leave everything behind, and that means forgetting all future plans for your ego-self. It isn’t what you really are, it causes nothing but misery, and it doesn’t really exist.
How best to use this site: if you have entered the stream, I don’t need to tell you what to read. If you have not yet entered the stream, I suggest that you first read “Hsin-hsin Ming.” It is forty verses long, so if you only read one post on a verse per day, it will take you less than forty days. Pay particular attention to Jeanne Guyon’s guide to “prayer” (Do not labor to quiet your thoughts), which is an introduction to mindfulness meditation (as opposed to releasing, which you must also learn to do). With Jeanne’s method you pick a sacred writing and you read a short passage from it. After reading the passage, you pause for a time and focus your thoughts on what you have read. The text itself matters less than the fact that you aren’t thinking about other things, but sacred writings, such as the Hsin-hsin Ming and Adi Shankara’s Self-Realization, provide meditations. Less poetic but no less true are the words of Lester Levenson in The Ultimate Truth.
After you have read Hsin-hsin Ming and have become familiar with some form of meditation, I suggest you look over Eleven Practices. If you don’t understand the purpose of a practice, read a related post. Then, when you have a good grasp of why each practice is recommended and how you are going to accomplish it, set aside three months of your life, put on “The Secret of Healing,” and become your glorious unlimited Self.
I will end this introduction with the words of National Teacher Zhong:
It is a rare privilege to be born
as a human being,
as we happen to be.
If we do not achieve
enlightenment in this life,
when do we expect to achieve it?
— Nanyang Huizhong (675-775)
January 2, 2020.
Davidson, John (1995). The Gospel of Jesus: In Search of His Original Teachings. Element Books.
M. O’C. Walshe (1987). Meister Eckhart: Sermons and Treatises Volume II. UK: Element Books Limited.